PROMISE TEN

Oct 15, from “Strengthening My Recovery” daily reader 

Fears of failure and success will leave us, as we intuitively make healthier choices.” BRB p.591 

“While most folks believe they want to be successful, we know that many ACAs fear success. This is a fear born from years of regular servings of failure with side orders of abandonment, shame and humiliation. To be successful means that the spotlight can be turned on us, which recalls painful memories of never being good enough. 

As we learn to connect with our inner loving parent, our Inner Child, and our Higher Power, our intuitive sense is sharpened. No longer dependent on old tapes or the critical voice inside of our heads, we are free to use this intuitive sense to make healthy decisions. At the same time, we are clear that we are on a spiritual path and that every situation is a spiritual lesson. There is no way to fail on this path. 

Failure is the domain of our inner critic’s all-or-nothing thinking. As we learn to see this for what it is, we filter everything around us through our inner loving parent. We become attuned to our Inner Child’s quiet and steady voice as it tells us the better course for our spiritual, physical, and emotional development. We release our fears. 

On this day I will listen for guidance from my purest Inner Child’s perspective and trust that my fears will lose their grip on me.  I am open to being guided to higher levels /spiritual, emotional, and physical consciousness.” 

My experience: 

Who would have thought that the same fear that bores failure is the same fear that bores success.  It all stems from being in the spotlight and how I used to say it, this disrupts our ability to stay under the radar.  This means we have to come out of the shadows which we have grown accustomed.  I am slowly but surely coming out of the shadows. 

Only the Shadow Knows 

My residence in the shadows has been eternally long 

I was compelled into this so I could never be wrong 

Ordered not to speak on things that didn’t make sense 

Sneaking around with the girlfriend when no match in our hints 

Told I was too much and to tone it down 

Joy had to be curtailed as I shifted into a frown 

But how is it that Sharper can be so happy 

I was dazed and perplexed as I couldn’t see 

Why can’t I seem to enjoy like him I wonder 

So through life I plod and I blunder 

But the light has been shown and on me I must dote 

I need to concentrate on my happiness as I have once wrote 

Only I, my happiness I am responsible you see 

Only then, out of the shadows, come will me 

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