PROMISE SIX
June 15, from “Strengthening My Recovery” daily reader
“We will enjoy feeling stable, peaceful, and financially secure.” BRB p.591
“Chaotic, unsettled, and on the verge of financial ruin. For many of us these were the undercurrents flowing through our families. The river of alcoholism or dysfunction coursed its way through every aspect of our lives, leaving indelible imprints on our makeup. We came to ACA to learn how we had experienced this as children, and how as adults we unconsciously and regrettably had recreated the same conditions, only to feel helpless and bewildered by our current circumstances.
With our Higher Power’s guidance, we have been given a program that helps us first understand, then experience the hidden circumstances that set us up to seek out these alcoholic and dysfunctional conditions. Like a dredge boat, the Steps and reparenting allow us to dig out the river bed, change the river’s course, and reduce the rapids to a sleepy river, naturally guiding us to soft sandy shores of stability, peacefulness, and financial security.
Though there may still be occasional choppy waters, we realize that the program is like a huge unbreakable inner tube that allows us to ride out most of the daily challenges, so long as we are willing to trust, hold onto, and apply the spiritual principles we have learned and practiced.
On this day I will allow the full remembrance of my childhood conditions, use the program to reset my course, and enjoy feeling stability, peace, and financial security.”
My Experience:
In retrospect, I was probably never in harms way of being financially insecure and I enjoyed some stability, but I didn’t have peace. There was always this nagging thought that my alcoholic might get fired and then what would we do? How would we live? This un-peacefulness, if you will, became comfortable to me, so I sought out similar behaviors in relationships I had then got very angry as they played out that way. I now understand that was insane, but I didn’t know any different. Now I am all about peace, stability and financial security. I now work very hard on myself and have appropriate conversations to get a better understanding and mutual agreement of what financial stability looks and feels like. This helps me stay grounded in reality and helps me grow as a person. Whew!
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