Me and my Sponsor

11/05/18

Talked about what triggered me last week and talked about some things I experienced during the week.  My sponsor pointed out some of what I may have experienced may have to do with my self-confessed control issues.  I had to stop and examine that.  I am still sitting with it.  The dilemma I have is, is it really control that I am experiencing or am I truly trying to get my needs met and/or have a say on things. The beauty of this ACA program is my Sponsor guides and suggests, I get to determine the course of action and what I deem this might be.  I am thankful that he was able to point out the possibility of it being a control issue though, it provided me with a different perspective from which to examine my behavior.

Today taught me perspective and trying to focus not on my learned behavior, which helped me survive childhood, but rather opening myself up to other possibilities of reality. This discussion also taught me patience and gentleness with myself.  I don’t have to solve everything in one sitting, it is ok to sit with the problem and let it unfold.