DREAMS
Feb 10 from “Strengthening My Recovery” daily reader
“We thought we had forgotten these dreams, but our Inner Child remembers.” BRB p. 430
“As children we had an innocent wish to be heard, held, and protected. But in most of our homes, that didn’t happen. When we spoke, it was usually the beginning of trouble. When we tried to cuddle or show affection, we were ignored, laughed at, or flirted with. Most of the time we were alone. The idea of being protected was non existent. We grew up in a world where the norm was “anything goes, anytime.” It was almost impossible to keep up with what was going on, but we did our best.
We fantasized about having a different family where we could be ourselves and it would be okay. We wished for a place overflowing with love, a safe place where voices were soft and sweet, and where everyone just talked, laughed, and played together. It is so sad that we didn’t get that. We deserved a bright and happy childhood, didn’t we?
Our Inner Child is still waiting for this dream to be made real. This desire is still as strong as it was long ago. Who is going to be the person to bring this dream to this child?
In the ACA program we find that dreams can come true. Here, we are able to begin again, one day at a time. We can give our Inner Child all that we weren’t given. Recovering dreams is what this program is all about.
On this day I know that I deserve my dreams. I am willing to work to make them come true with the help of ACA.”
My experience:
We fantasized about having a different family where we could be ourselves and it would be okay. We wished for a place overflowing with love, a safe place where voices were soft and sweet, and where everyone just talked, laughed, and played together. It is so sad that we didn’t get that. We deserved a bright and happy childhood, didn’t we? This passage from above brings me to my knees in pain and tears. I never really knew those thoughts swirling around in my head forever were really what I was dreaming about. I white picket fence kind of life that was never offered to me. In fact, the choices I was making was not bringing me any closer to those dreams. I now journal to get those dreams out. Not only dreams about how I want to live but dreams about who I am and can become. I will continue to journal and get out of my head so that I can put in the work to make my dreams a reality. I won’t try to rush there, I will leave it to my Higher Power to get me there when I need to get there. But I do have to say, “WATCH OUT WORLD.”