What were my options? Beatings and soul crushing verbiage in one household, silence and emotional and physical abandonment in the other, or will it be the streets. With option number two I at least had the possibility of more contact with my family and friends. So I opted for that one. Thus, I continued on my journey…
Many of us have seen the twirling plate balancing act. You know the one where the guy twirls plates on sticks, then he feverishly runs around to get to the ones that are on the verge of tumbling only to start them twirling again. He continues to add plates and keeps them all afloat. This…
Nov 24, from “Strengthening My Recovery” daily reader “An ACA ‘bottom’ may take various forms. We say to ourselves “I can’t stand being alone with myself,” or “I hate myself.” But if we analyze just these two statements, we can see they seem to speak of ‘I’ and ‘self’ as if they are two separate…
Nov 23, from “Strengthening My Recovery” daily reader “Many of us learned to victimize ourselves with self-destructive behaviors. We were taught to devalue ourselves early on, and had to join in our own victimization as a way to survive. Unfortunately, the survival mechanisms we learned in order to cope hurt us just as deeply now…